FIKSI.NET — I'm sure almost everyone who lives on Earth had already heard APT. song by Rosé and Bruno Mars, but not everyone knows a hidden track in Rosie that Rosé had for her dedicated fans. It's called Vampirehollie, and she teased the song way back before she released her full-length studio album in the middle of 2024.
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A little history about Vampirehollie
Rosé teased the song, Vampirehollie, through her private channel on her (formerly) private Instagram account @vampirehollie. I think it was way back in 2023 or something... I forgot. But I remember the teaser got me hyped up for her upcoming solo album.
It was a mess... because—at least, I—have no idea why she and her team removing followers from @vampirehollie in the early days prior to the release of her album. Now, you can follow the account and see what she's been posting there, even join her (formerly) private Instagram broadcast channel too.
Anyway, let's go back to the hidden track.
Why can't you find Vampirehollie in iTunes or Spotify?
A song called Vampirehollie is not in the retail version, you must pre-order or purchased the "Vampirehollie Vinyl Edition" that's available in 3 different vinyl colors and covers.
The digital version was only available for 24 hours download. As for where, I have no idea. I missed the date. I was busy with something else at the time.
Don't worry though, if you missed the date like I did, or you missed the pre-order period for the vinyl press. You can still find them today (when I am writing this article, at least) in the local retailers. Even I bought mine from the local shop, because I didn't join the pre-order. As for the digital version, you know YouTube is a magical place... no need to cry.
What the song Vampirehollie by Rosé means?
IF I'm not mistaken, Rosé wrote this song at the lowest point in her life, when she lets haters got into her head. She said in one of the interviews, she didn't know why that night, suddenly it really hurts to read what people saying about her on the internet.
Her lyrics, "stupid words, lot of bad jokes, angel hearts and a cute name" might be referring to usernames and emojis people on X/Twitter uses on their profiles.
She said, she usually stronghearted. She herself hate the fact that the words got to her. I also heard that some fanatics are trying to invade her privacy when they found Rosé's private Instagram account that's now open. Yep! You guessed it, @vampirehollie. Hence, the title of the song.
The song lays bare her self-awareness—the painful juxtaposition between knowing she shouldn’t be broken by their words and the raw ache of remembering them anyway. It’s there in the verse: “Hate that I can remember, every evil thing you said,” and erupts in the chorus: “Why am I letting you win? Let you get under my skin.” Logic battles feeling; she understands her power, yet their venom still seeps in.
Yet, her lyrics defy expectations, blending vulnerability with defiance.
Out of all her songs in the album, I love Vampirehollie more than the others. It doesn't mean that I don't like her other tracks, it is just that... this song in particular, very vulnerable, very honest, yet powerful as a reminder to myself personally.
What Vampirehollie meant to me, personally
I think this is the best song and my most favorite track that Rosé wrote for her first solo album. This song speaks to me personally, and I hope she knows and read this... somehow. I want her to know that I love her songwriting. I love this song, and no words could describe. Thank you, Rosé for writing and making this song. I meant it, from the bottom of my heart.
You know sometimes, people can be so cruel without any reason. Fortunately, I'm the kind of person who believes that what people say or do, actually reflect their true nature, and has so little to do about us. Having that awareness, however, doesn't mean that I'm always immune by the way people treating me, or do to me.
Last month, I saw someone posting cryptic poems about me. In those poems, it is clear to me that they hope to me more than friends with me, even though I had made it clear to them that I do not feel the same way towards them. Yet, they play victim, and who knows, perhaps they are doing a smear champaign behind my back. They wrote as if them and I had something going on, and I end it abruptly—unfairly.
That is not what happens between us of course. In fact, they were the one who decided not to reply to my chat and ignore me for days. So, I thought, I don't want to bother them, better left them alone, let them take their time, I thought.
Yet, what a cruel manipulation tactic they use to someone they claimed to love unconditionally?!
There was nothing going on between them and I. I treated them as friend, kept myself at a safe distance—never even hold their hands (lol) so they don’t get the wrong ideas about our relationship (which just friendship).
What did I miss? I thought to myself. What do they hope to gain from writing something like that?
It was the worst moment to find out about their account actually. I was in mourning because my great grandma passed away—I was close to my great grandma for my whole life, so losing her is a really big deal.
I met a person like them when I was underage, that person were so obsessed with me. When their feelings didn't reciprocate, they ran a smear champaign, making people in my community turn against me and treated me like shit. What that person did to me, traumatized me—I remember I had a panic attack when I saw women with short hair.
Years after I learned to forgive and forget, that person still tried to ruin my life. They contacted my partner (at the time) warned my partner about me, saying, "be careful, she is not a good person, she only plays with you, she is not serious, just mark my words," something like that.
Oh, please not this again, I thought to myself. That night when I read their delusional posts about our friendship (which they think is more than that—friendship), I cried, because I was so tired that night. Emotionally, I feel violated in so many ways. I don't know why I let them get under my skin. They prey on my weakness, do they even care?
This song, Vampirehollie, speaks to me on a personal level. I love the lyrics, and somewhat it reminds me NOT to let that kind of person get the best of me.
Why am I down on the floorSaying, "Can't take it anymore"?Every tear that I let fall, you can claim 'em allI can't let you break me like this
A reminder, to not let them break me. It's all that I need.
Fortunately, my friends who knows them and can decipher the meaning of their cryptic poems by themselves, gives me courage and let me know that I did the right thing, and that person is the one who gets the wrong idea—playing with their mind, imagining things that don’t exist.
Even though I appear to be strong and unbothered on the outside, sometimes, I also have my moment of vulnerability. And I thank Rosé for making this song, for letting me know that this feeling is not only felt by me. And... isn't that the point of making art? Isn't that the reason why we write? To relate to others, to make us feel less alone.
What do you think? Did I miss anything, or do you have questions—or even the answers I’m looking for? Let’s keep the conversation going! Drop your thoughts in the comments below.
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